These days...

Wow I guess its been a while since I last posted huh?

A lot has happened since my last post... a lot of messed up things as well as a lot of amazing things..

I know you guys saw me mention my "LOVER" well guess what? Now he's my BOYFRIEND!:)
I don't know if I really want to be happy about this or even more over protective! all I know for sure is that he does have a history, and I'm not the first girl that he tried to fool around with. I know this because I made him confess to me. But it was before we even started doing anything, so that doesn't really count rite?

Well anyways, we've been through a lot since then. but now he's mine! I just kinda wish that he wasn't so... como se dice.. I guess shamed about me. I know that he doesn't feel like that, it's just this feeling I get from him when we are out in public in our hometown. Like when we're on a date and there's a lot of people around and I grab for his hand, he pulls away and acts like he's going to wrap it around my waist which he does for a little bit, but then drops it and just walks besides me... Is it because I'm so over weight? Maybe.. We are a very unlikely couple.. Him being shorter then me and Mexican, while I'm tall and FAT. I just kind of think that he is ashamed of being seen with me unless I dress up and look beautiful for him.

If he were here and he read this I know he would say that I'm stupid for even thinking like this, but sometimes you can't really help how you feel or think. What do you think?

It just bugs me sometimes. He tells me that he loves me even though sometimes its like he's just joking around. Usually I have to say it first, but when he does tell me that he loves me sincerely it just makes my heart stop:)

How can we be so different but still manage to find each other? LOL But you know.. His mom says that he's bad for me.. Which I know that that's true. He made me get two abortions already.. I think that's part of the real reason that I got this Blog. I know that I haven't been on for a very long time. But that's only because my iPhone won't let me blog -_-" I'm glad that I managed to find it again.

Now that I have more time for this I'll make sure to at least update it everyday. Starting with all my crazy antics at work and my relationship problems as well as problems at home and with family...

OH! which reminds me!!! I was blessed with a beautiful niece in November! She weighed 7lbs 6oz and was born at 12:04pm at Kona hospital! She was 18inches long and her name is Faith Kaimalie Rivera. When I figure out how to post pictures on this thing I will! LOL because she really is a beautiful baby girl and everything about her is amazing.

Well that's all for now!